I'm home after visiting Mom and I'm struck by how surreal it all feels. I'm throwing out garbage and it hits me that I own this condo/townhouse. WTF? Never in my wildest dreams, did I ever thought I would own my place? All by myself, how did that happen? What's really devastating is knowing my Mom will never sit in my livingroom, have dinner here or even come over for a sleepover. I can see her sitting on my couch in North Quincy, Brookline, Baltimore and back to Brookline again.
And I can hear y'all saying she is here with me in spirit and yes I agree with you. But there's no doubt it's not the same. I just have to be grateful for the time and all of the experiences I've had with her. And to keep my memories of her alive on this blog. Life is too short to not enjoy it. I have an awesome job, a home to call my own for me and my two babies, amazing friends and I still have my Dad and my brother. So much to be happy about....right? No doubt not the same happiness but to a lesser degree. I'll take that.
And I can hear y'all saying she is here with me in spirit and yes I agree with you. But there's no doubt it's not the same. I just have to be grateful for the time and all of the experiences I've had with her. And to keep my memories of her alive on this blog. Life is too short to not enjoy it. I have an awesome job, a home to call my own for me and my two babies, amazing friends and I still have my Dad and my brother. So much to be happy about....right? No doubt not the same happiness but to a lesser degree. I'll take that.
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