​My uncle Rob was rushed to the ED Monday night. Long story short, they believe it was a minor seizure and not a stroke. He also has pneumonia. Poor guy cannot get a break! He was doing so well and making huge strides in getting better. He is lucky to have my aunt and two cousins right there by his side. They've been running tests for the last couple of days. 

Conclusion, he had aspirated pneumonia and needs to be on a pureed and liquid diet. Which he is probably not going to follow as he loves his food. So let's keep our fingers crossed. Similarly, my Dad should not be drinking or smoking but he doesn't care either. What can you do?  

Ah yah. 

Went to visit Por Por yesterday and lately she keeps telling me she'll give me money to buy dinner so I don't have to cook! So yesterday I said to her "wow, you must love me a lot to give me money for dinner." And she replied "I've always loved you!" Aaaawww, you know how Chinese people are - especially seniors. They never verbally express their affections.

It was a touching moment. Had to blog about it otherwise I'll forget! 

I picked up Dad from airport last night and learned some bad news from HK. Two of my Mom's brothers are being treated for cancer. One, I already knew about when I visited last year. Also, my Mom's sister-in-law's breast cancer has returned and it doesn't sound hopeful. 

Man, this is so crazy! I wasn't planning on going back to HK any time soon. But I just asked my cousin Betty to keep me posted and I will fly back. I did this about 10 years ago when my cousin was dying from colon cancer. I went back for just a week as I wanted to say goodbye to him. 

I know my Mom is busy trying to do what she can for her beloved family in HK. So sad....

So I have a little break from my Dad this week while he is in MD, whew! Sorry, did I just say that? I have a little bit of time after work and weekends to think about shit. I honestly believe that I haven't come to terms with losing Helen. Never mind my Mom. I met up with an old friend from back in the "Castle Square" days and she even said she's been worried about me. 

How do you come to terms with the loss of someone that was so close to you? Everyone says time....but what does that do? Honestly, it's coming up on 5 years since Mom passed and here I am still blogging about it. Time...hmmmm, it eases the pain for sure. But the grief comes back in an instant whenever I see someone suffering from loss whether in person or in movies or on tv. I was at a wake last Saturday and almost broke down crying while I was standing in front of the coffin looking down at the deceased. He was the father of an acquaintance so I didn't even know him. 

I'm saying all of this cos I'm trying to come to terms with my grief. I have such a great support system....I know I've mentioned this before but I am very  grateful for my friends and family. I'm actually doing fine so I don't want to alarm anyone. This blog allows me to voice my thoughts. And the fact that there is on average 20+ ppl viewing it on a daily basis! Wow...thanks for reading it. 

Of course I'm not nervous cos we all know what happened the last time he was in MD! But he is in good hands as Nancy and Brandon will take good care of him. It's good for him to get away during all of the CNY festivities, less temptation to drink and eat bad greasy chinese food. 

There isn't a lot to do there but it's a place where he is catered to and he can relax. As long as he is happy. Plus it'll give me a break - tho I'm on Por Por duty cos Uncle Dave is on vacation. So it's all good. Let's just keep our fingers crossed that he's won't have another stroke!