As I move forward with my life, I understand that I am forever changed by my Mom's death. No longer do I have someone to call when I have a free moment during the day- every day. No longer can I share my ups and downs with my biggest cheerleader and biggest critic. And no longer will I ever have another Mom.
And now that I've spent the last year lost and without direction. Which I'm guessing is normal. I look towards 2014 with much trepidation. How does my Mom's passing define who I am and who I shall become. Lord knows I need her strength now more than ever.
I'm in the process of buying a house in Newton. It's pretty astounding that I'm in this position. Three years ago, I was basically homeless with little Choco living from friend to friend's place. I was never in danger of living on the streets cos I could've moved in with my parents at their elderly housing apts! And now, a HOMEOWNER! WTF?
And work is amazing, busier than ever! But my personal life, ah ya ya ya?! It's ever challenging but still hanging on for some reason. I have faith things will work out with lots of patience and love.
So with all that said, I wish my Mom was her to share all of this with. I can have her sleepover in the spare bedroom, cook and take care of her. It's honestly heartwrenching that she won't see my first home. But I know in my heart, she is up there watching and guiding me somehow.
And now that I've spent the last year lost and without direction. Which I'm guessing is normal. I look towards 2014 with much trepidation. How does my Mom's passing define who I am and who I shall become. Lord knows I need her strength now more than ever.
I'm in the process of buying a house in Newton. It's pretty astounding that I'm in this position. Three years ago, I was basically homeless with little Choco living from friend to friend's place. I was never in danger of living on the streets cos I could've moved in with my parents at their elderly housing apts! And now, a HOMEOWNER! WTF?
And work is amazing, busier than ever! But my personal life, ah ya ya ya?! It's ever challenging but still hanging on for some reason. I have faith things will work out with lots of patience and love.
So with all that said, I wish my Mom was her to share all of this with. I can have her sleepover in the spare bedroom, cook and take care of her. It's honestly heartwrenching that she won't see my first home. But I know in my heart, she is up there watching and guiding me somehow.
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