I'm sitting here watching Trump address Congress and thinking what a BS artist. Man, it's scary how many people support him. Since he's become President, it seems like such a scary world! But hey, what do I know? I can't debate effectively as I only know the news on a surface level. 

Mom would probably agree with me that he's an egotistical, narcissistic moron. Haha, that what I'd like to believe!

We had a little scare with Dad as they found a lesion on his liver. They monitor him on a regular basis because he has Hep B. He had an MRI done and luckily the lesion isn't cancerous. Whew. I've been telling him to stop drinking but I don't think he listens. Especially now with all these CNY banquets he attends. But he does what he wants and he just nods his head when I lecture him.

Lately, I haven't had any urges to travel. Haven't made any plans yet. Maybe Vegas? And definitely another beach resort. I feel guilty for leaving the cats behind. Not sure why now? Getting older? We'll see, who knows? I may be blogging next month from some hotel room far far far away!

I don't dream often and when I do, I generally don't remember it. But this morning, I didn't want to wake up from my dream! There was my Mom, still weak from the cancer but smiling and happy. My Dad, Nancy and Brandon were also in my dream. I asked my Mom what she wanted to do and she said let's go eat in Chinatown. So we walked slowly together with me holding her closely. We sat down in some restaurant and she had such joy on her face. I felt this sense of peacefulness flowing through me.

And then I was sitting in Helen's family apt. back in Castle Square. Hel and her sisters were all there and were talking about how Hel faked her death. What? So I asked her how did she do it?? I can still picture her in the hospital and the funeral home. But there she was sitting right next to me? One of her sisters turned to me and said "Don't you know, she is ALWAYS with you?" And I woke up.

Started sobbing cos I was this close to both my Mom and Hel! It made missing them all so real. I miss telling my Mom what's going on. I miss telling Hel who I saw and all of the crazy ass shit that's happening in my life. And of course, who comes to comfort me yet once again? Choco, who's always been there for me. He puts his paw on my head as if to say, it's ok.

I'm trying to understand the significance of my dream. Is this Mom's way of telling me life will be fine and not to worry. And that she is here for me? It's just so strange. Or is it really a sign? Recently, I was thinking that I wish Mom was still alive as I'm finally making decent money. I wish I could spoil her and take her on vacation or buy her things! My Dad is now benefiting from it. ​I guess it's ok though I know she would tell me to stop spoiling him.

The best part of the dream was I felt so close to her but it's also the worst part as it ended way too soon.

Dad is doing ok, he's limping along.  He was told his right leg is now shorter than his left because of his stroke? Is that possible? He refuses to do PT and said he would exercise on his own. I haven't seen any evidence of this yet so I decided to enroll him at the Newton Y so he can go swimming. A few years ago, he asked about finding a gym with a pool. But it never came to fruition. 

We went for the first time last Saturday and my thought was just to drop him off and pick him back up when he was done. I went in with him to make sure he knew where the locker room and the pool were located. Was just about to leave and took a peek in and saw him panicking in the water. So I ended up staying. He claims he cannot float any longer?!

WTF? My parents used to take me and Norm to Don Bosco to swim. He would swim underwater and tickle our feet! How can you forget how to swim?

This week he was better cos we strapped on this foam thingie around his waist. He even went to the deep end.  Hope the next time I update you, he is able to swim!​