So a year ago, mom was doing poorly so we took her to the ED. Who knew? Would I have done or said anything differently???
So how am I dealing with this? Can't say I'm looking forward to this week. I'm reliving each day as it happened last year. Looking back, I don't know how we managed to keep it together. But I think it was because of you know who...because SHE was the strong one and made sure we kept it together. She wouldn't accept anything less. It's funny how she was the one dying yet she was smiling to the end. She kept us going. She was always worried about us and told us to go home to get some rest. She didn't want us staying overnight with her, said she was tired and going to sleep. So how can I be.....sad? I am so lucky to have had her in my life.
And yet, I find myself crying at the most inopportune times in the last couple of days. Honestly, I'm having a hard time. It's normal, right? I'm sure it get easier each year that goes by....and I welcome that time. But for now, I guess I'll give in to my feelings, good or bad. Don't know any other way to live my life. Got that from my mom......
So how am I dealing with this? Can't say I'm looking forward to this week. I'm reliving each day as it happened last year. Looking back, I don't know how we managed to keep it together. But I think it was because of you know who...because SHE was the strong one and made sure we kept it together. She wouldn't accept anything less. It's funny how she was the one dying yet she was smiling to the end. She kept us going. She was always worried about us and told us to go home to get some rest. She didn't want us staying overnight with her, said she was tired and going to sleep. So how can I be.....sad? I am so lucky to have had her in my life.
And yet, I find myself crying at the most inopportune times in the last couple of days. Honestly, I'm having a hard time. It's normal, right? I'm sure it get easier each year that goes by....and I welcome that time. But for now, I guess I'll give in to my feelings, good or bad. Don't know any other way to live my life. Got that from my mom......
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