I was driving home yesterday from having dinner at my Uncle Rob's house. He and Mona are like my 2nd parents! They were nice enough to invite me over cos Mona's sister was visiting from Vegas and Rob was cooking a feast. It got a little too much for me and for some reason I judged wanted to go home to be by myself. And there's a thunderstorm outside and it's pouring rain. But it that doesn't stop me instead I kinda welcomed it.
So as I'm driving home, I'm listening to some new songs I just downloaded and all of sudden, The Platters' "Smoke Gets in Your Eyes" came on!
Fuck, that startled the shit out of me! Where did that come from? Then I remembered I downloaded it a few years back so I can upload it to the blog referencing it that it was one of my Mom's favorite song. After those thoughts passed through my mind, I started crying. How fitting, my tears are in line with the sky! Was this a sign that my Mom is with me? I've been waiting for this! I just need another sign that she approves of what I'm doing. Is that asking for too much?
A couple of things happened this weekend - it could be an awesome thing if I open myself up and allow it to happen. But I'm struggling - am I ready to letting go and be happy? Sorry to be vague but I have to protect the people involved. :) Let's see what happens next.
I'm going to connect with Mom when I'm sitting on the beach in Cancun next week! Can't wait.
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