I don't dream often and when I do, I generally don't remember it. But this morning, I didn't want to wake up from my dream! There was my Mom, still weak from the cancer but smiling and happy. My Dad, Nancy and Brandon were also in my dream. I asked my Mom what she wanted to do and she said let's go eat in Chinatown. So we walked slowly together with me holding her closely. We sat down in some restaurant and she had such joy on her face. I felt this sense of peacefulness flowing through me.
And then I was sitting in Helen's family apt. back in Castle Square. Hel and her sisters were all there and were talking about how Hel faked her death. What? So I asked her how did she do it?? I can still picture her in the hospital and the funeral home. But there she was sitting right next to me? One of her sisters turned to me and said "Don't you know, she is ALWAYS with you?" And I woke up.
Started sobbing cos I was this close to both my Mom and Hel! It made missing them all so real. I miss telling my Mom what's going on. I miss telling Hel who I saw and all of the crazy ass shit that's happening in my life. And of course, who comes to comfort me yet once again? Choco, who's always been there for me. He puts his paw on my head as if to say, it's ok.
I'm trying to understand the significance of my dream. Is this Mom's way of telling me life will be fine and not to worry. And that she is here for me? It's just so strange. Or is it really a sign? Recently, I was thinking that I wish Mom was still alive as I'm finally making decent money. I wish I could spoil her and take her on vacation or buy her things! My Dad is now benefiting from it. I guess it's ok though I know she would tell me to stop spoiling him.
The best part of the dream was I felt so close to her but it's also the worst part as it ended way too soon.
And then I was sitting in Helen's family apt. back in Castle Square. Hel and her sisters were all there and were talking about how Hel faked her death. What? So I asked her how did she do it?? I can still picture her in the hospital and the funeral home. But there she was sitting right next to me? One of her sisters turned to me and said "Don't you know, she is ALWAYS with you?" And I woke up.
Started sobbing cos I was this close to both my Mom and Hel! It made missing them all so real. I miss telling my Mom what's going on. I miss telling Hel who I saw and all of the crazy ass shit that's happening in my life. And of course, who comes to comfort me yet once again? Choco, who's always been there for me. He puts his paw on my head as if to say, it's ok.
I'm trying to understand the significance of my dream. Is this Mom's way of telling me life will be fine and not to worry. And that she is here for me? It's just so strange. Or is it really a sign? Recently, I was thinking that I wish Mom was still alive as I'm finally making decent money. I wish I could spoil her and take her on vacation or buy her things! My Dad is now benefiting from it. I guess it's ok though I know she would tell me to stop spoiling him.
The best part of the dream was I felt so close to her but it's also the worst part as it ended way too soon.
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