We spent Saturday night watching all of the videos on this site. We laughed watching my parents talk about their first meeting and me shaving my Mom's head. And it was so bittersweet watching the videos of her at Dana Farber, How strong she was and ridiculously happy despite the fact that she was there for treatment. She was at peace with it all, more so than I was.
On Sunday we were having breakfast at a café and during the conversation, I felt like l was channeling my Mom. I was doling out advice to Brandon and almost lecturing him in a similar fashion to what my Mom used to do. Thank goodness he didn't seem to mind!
I visited her today at the cemetery and thought how special she was. It's just too bad I'm realizing it now. And how much I still miss her. But I feel her...near me...close by...watching over me.