Since she's been gone, I think I've gone through every emotion imaginable. I knew it was it was going to be hard but damn, never thought it would be a constant pain in my heart, in my head....I also knew birthdays and the holidays coming up would be tough. But we breezed through Dad's birthday and hers as we spent it in MD with Nancy and Brandon. And Thanksgiving was bearable because we spent it with the Chin family.
Yesterday, I spent my "birth"day with Rob and his kids. We dressed the kids up and went to a nice fancy restaurant. The kids were super cute! Dad was sick and didn't go at the last minute.
Tonight, me, Rob and Dad met Norm for dinner at Legals. It was nice but a little strange not having Mom there celebrating along with us. And when the waitress found out it was my birthday, she offered a free dessert. So when she brought it lit with a candle, she said I should make a wish. Jeez, that's a no brainer - I wished my mom was here with me. I held back the tears cos I didn't want to ruin the moment.
It's funny cos last week I thought I was doing better and finally moving on. But after last night, I quickly realized this isn't something you move forward with. The loss stays within....
Yesterday, I spent my "birth"day with Rob and his kids. We dressed the kids up and went to a nice fancy restaurant. The kids were super cute! Dad was sick and didn't go at the last minute.
Tonight, me, Rob and Dad met Norm for dinner at Legals. It was nice but a little strange not having Mom there celebrating along with us. And when the waitress found out it was my birthday, she offered a free dessert. So when she brought it lit with a candle, she said I should make a wish. Jeez, that's a no brainer - I wished my mom was here with me. I held back the tears cos I didn't want to ruin the moment.
It's funny cos last week I thought I was doing better and finally moving on. But after last night, I quickly realized this isn't something you move forward with. The loss stays within....
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