Don't even want to think about it..

Dad was recently diagnosed with diabetes. He was warned by his PCP for awhile now that he needed to lose weight and to watch his carb and sugar intake. But Dad didn't listen so he is now taking diabetes meds. I had to take him to get his eyes checked today and luckily everything is fine. His eyes are not affected by the diabetes. Yesterday I was at work sitting at my desk and for some reason I was thinking about my Dad. And thinking about me taking him to his appt.  As much as I complain about him, I don't know what I would do if I lose him. Especially now when I still feel vulnerable. So I started tearing up?! At work which isn't good. :(

Ok, if he wants to go to HK once again, I guess I will bite my tongue and help him make it happen. Once again....I want him to be happy. I know he still misses my Mom. So if this helps him to forget then who am I to stand in his way? Tho I can hear my Mom saying I'm too nice to him.