And some of the people who came, I haven't seen in years! Maybe 30+ years! Numbers were exchanged. But who knows if we'll actually connect. And then there are those who I only see at wakes and funerals. So depressing. But on the flip side, the people closest to me were there to show their support to me as well as pay their respect to Hel. I have amazing friends and family.
Helen's passing has strengthened my resolve to only have good people in my life. Decent people who are caring, nurturing, considerate and genuine. Not insensitive and selfish liars. Those type of people have no place in my life and can go fuck themselves. And I'm referring to people from the past whom I honestly believed were sincere and decent. Man, it sucks when you realized how wrong you are about someone. Helen put up with a lot of BS from people like that throughout her life. I wish I did a better job of protecting her.
I know she was looking down at us last night and was laughing her ass off. We did our best people watching at wakes! I can only imagine what she was thinking about with some of the people there. But most importantly, Helen would've been proud of the way her daughter Jocelyn handled herself.
Again, RIP. Say hi to my mom, please!