Mom had her CT scan yesterday and I thought I would discuss the results with Dr. Marcoux next Tuesday when we meet. But he called on my way home today and told me the tumors in her left lung grew and caused the lung to partially collapsed. That's what happened in HK so it wasn't the flu that caused my mom to stop breathing. He spoke with the radiation oncology team and they all agreed my mom would benefit from radiation treatment. And they wanted to start on Monday!!!
This was not the news I was hoping for. I think I took for granted at how well she's been doing. Chemo, the long flight to HK, the scary hospital stay, the flight back.....how much more can she take? She's still recovering from the flu and never mind the jet lag. She is so weak!! Ah yah...
But I have to face reality and realize the cancer may beat her after all. We were warned the cancer is fast-growing and will spread eventually. I really shouldn't be surprised.....After hanging up with the doctor, I started crying. This may be it cos who knows how much longer she can withstand the all-over nerve pain, coughing and trouble breathing. But I had to pull myself together so I can break the news to her and my Dad.
And you know what?? When I broke the news, she said ok, let's do it. Of course, Dad didn't take the news well. But I can't worry about him. My main concern is Mom and it sounds like she's accepted her fate. And she's ok with it. Now I just have to do the same so I can be strong for her and my family.......
This was not the news I was hoping for. I think I took for granted at how well she's been doing. Chemo, the long flight to HK, the scary hospital stay, the flight back.....how much more can she take? She's still recovering from the flu and never mind the jet lag. She is so weak!! Ah yah...
But I have to face reality and realize the cancer may beat her after all. We were warned the cancer is fast-growing and will spread eventually. I really shouldn't be surprised.....After hanging up with the doctor, I started crying. This may be it cos who knows how much longer she can withstand the all-over nerve pain, coughing and trouble breathing. But I had to pull myself together so I can break the news to her and my Dad.
And you know what?? When I broke the news, she said ok, let's do it. Of course, Dad didn't take the news well. But I can't worry about him. My main concern is Mom and it sounds like she's accepted her fate. And she's ok with it. Now I just have to do the same so I can be strong for her and my family.......
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