Sorry, haven't posted in awhile. Was going through a rough patch during Chinese New Year. Again, Mom's favorite and happiest time of the year. It's so HARD not having her here. And the catch is, you're supposed to be celebrating and be happy! Seriously, I hate going on and on about being sad and how much I miss my mom. I've really tried to let go of the grief but little things triggers it. So then everything seems overwhelming and impossible to bear. At the same time, dealing with a break-up and all of the drama that goes along with it. Emotions are intensified so much so, I don't even recognize myself - needy, angry, feeling sorry for myself, and crying all the time. Mom would not be happy with me!!!
I've resigned myself to dealing with this on my own. I do have the most supportive friends and family. But sometimes it's easier to grieve alone. I feel like it makes people uncomfortable and sad to see me upset. And that's the last thing I want to do.
So I take comfort in knowing Mom is celebrating in heaven with her beloved parents and her favorite niece and nephew.
I've resigned myself to dealing with this on my own. I do have the most supportive friends and family. But sometimes it's easier to grieve alone. I feel like it makes people uncomfortable and sad to see me upset. And that's the last thing I want to do.
So I take comfort in knowing Mom is celebrating in heaven with her beloved parents and her favorite niece and nephew.
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