Rough weekend

Mom had a bunch of visitors this weekend. Uncle Dave and Judy were there Friday afternoon. Connie and her sister were there Saturday night and brought dinner. An really old friend from back in the nightclub days, Uncle Wei came by this am and brought dim sum. But Mom really didn't eat either times. Plus I'm not sure what happened but starting Saturday she can barely walk or sit up. She is so weak! And her short-term memory is totally shot. She still wants to go out and smoke so we wheel her out in her new wheelchair. She is no longer smiling and looks so forlorn. I tried smiling at her and it usually generates a huge smile from her but nothing. She looks so out of it. What happened? Too much of the pain meds? Is it the aftermath from the radiation to her head? I need to put a call to Dr. Marcoux in the am. 

And not to sound gross but I had to rush to CVS  to buy her some Depends. Mom needs it as a precautionary measure.  I lucked out because I had a minute to spare before they closed!!! Otherwise I would have been driving around trying to find some place that was still open after 10pm. I'm exhausted from this emotional experience of seeing my mom deteriorate right before my eyes. Plus I'm still recovering from my cold/flu/strep. Dad is also having a hard time trying to come to grips with it. He came close to breaking down a few times while trying to hold her up when she walks or goes to the bathroom.  I told him there is no way she can do any treatments the way she is now. He closed his eyes and shook his head. He is refusing to believe enormity of the situation. He still has hope. I admire that in him.