Don't want to read too much into it but maybe I need to start taking more risks in life? And not let being 50 deter me from thinking or doing things outside the box? It's much easier to take the safe and familiar path. But what do I have to lose?
I sense that my Mom is sending things/people my way to test my judgement. The last 4 years have been so difficult and have definitely changed me forever. But it's really up to me and how I'm going to let it define my life. Despite all of the hardships and crap my Mom went through, she still smiled and never went down the negative path. So yes, she is gone but she can still inspire me.