Time is just flying by....

Can't believe Thanksgiving is coming up! WTF? 2014 is almost done. Dad is still in China/HK - who knows what he's up to. But he's back the day before Thanksgiving. I believe this year Thanksgiving will be at the nursing home. It's funny, every time I leave the nursing home, an "old folks" smell stays with me. Can't really describe it - musty, mediciney, BO, or a liittle bit of pee pee? I didn't get that at South Cove Manor in Quincy.

Been distracted at work lately and busy with new volunteer ops. So haven't had a lot of time to miss my Mom. So I guess this is what people mean when they say it gets better with time. Looking back, I also think dealing with grief is harder when you're alone. You can have loads of friends and family but they aren't with you 24/7. So I can see how having a partner can ease your grief. But I can also see how I'm stronger without. Basically, it's exactly how my mom lived her life. This is her legacy to me.

I remember the day before she passed. It was Friday 7am - she woke up smiling from ear to ear! Her eyes were lit up. Here she was at the DANA FARBER CANCER HOSPITAL dying!! How does anyone have the fortitude to exude the joy from within when death is staring at you? So the moral of this is to live life with joy. She was so inspiring and I need to remember and honor her with that memory. Thanks, Mom!