OK, we're at the end of month two of renovations and it's still going. My landlord asked me to move out a little early so he can make some minor repairs and paint the apt. I had to move my babies to my Dad's and then I move to Rob's.
If you've renovated before, then you know what I'm going through. The thought of making a bad design choice is so stressful. And I'm sorry but you can look at a million pictures of kitchens, bathrooms & livingrooms and still can't figure out what you want. Plus I only wanted to buy things at stores in which it would be easy to return. I've never been an online shopperr so it's been more trips to Lowes and Home Depot.
I'm also starting a new job so alot going on. I'm giving up consulting. It's such a relief to not have to answer to 6 different clients day in and day out. Now I can focus on one. Tho I will still help out at GnuBIO, my PT job.
This should be a happy and exciting time in my life. Yet I feel none of that. I know in my heart, that my Mom is looking out for me and is making things happen for me. I can't shake this cloud hanging over me. Cos how can I be happy without the person who made this all possible? It's been a year and a half and I'm still singing the same song. Sorry....I hope one day I will be able to view her passing with more positivity. And less depressing sentiments.....this bloig will then be a happy place to come to.....
If you've renovated before, then you know what I'm going through. The thought of making a bad design choice is so stressful. And I'm sorry but you can look at a million pictures of kitchens, bathrooms & livingrooms and still can't figure out what you want. Plus I only wanted to buy things at stores in which it would be easy to return. I've never been an online shopperr so it's been more trips to Lowes and Home Depot.
I'm also starting a new job so alot going on. I'm giving up consulting. It's such a relief to not have to answer to 6 different clients day in and day out. Now I can focus on one. Tho I will still help out at GnuBIO, my PT job.
This should be a happy and exciting time in my life. Yet I feel none of that. I know in my heart, that my Mom is looking out for me and is making things happen for me. I can't shake this cloud hanging over me. Cos how can I be happy without the person who made this all possible? It's been a year and a half and I'm still singing the same song. Sorry....I hope one day I will be able to view her passing with more positivity. And less depressing sentiments.....this bloig will then be a happy place to come to.....
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